Why yes, yes it has been a long time since i've posted!! I guess i just don't have a lot to say...also, i've been trying not to think and because of that i've lost all ability to be interesting!!! But what do you do!! I'm currently waiting for my job to start...hopefully, i will start thinking again about that time! :) It is weird to me how we can surpress thoughts...i was talking to theresa tonight and i was telling her things that obviously i have opinions on but it has never come out in thought or conversation until tonight. And these are things that i probably should have been thinking about...coming to conclusion, etc....but of course now that they have surfaced, i'm thinking about them more which at this point i'm not sure is a good thing!! Anyway...enough about that! Anyone eaten at the cheesecake factory yet!! Damn good cheesecake!! and the food is pretty damn good too...my grandparents took me out there tonight!! Good times were had....well, good food was had! : )

So what have you been doing with all your time to do nothing...well, i'm glad you asked!! I've been painting...i've moved...i've cleaned....i've cleaned more!...i've read a lot...tom robbins, i know i've blogged about him a little in my last blog but i'm going to blog about him again. I just finished Still Life with Woodpecker!! He's a really good author that can put majorly good thoughts into a book that can make absolutely no sense whatsoever! but he does it great! Anyway, i'm going to share with you a long "quote" from this book!! I think its great and totally true!!

When we're incomplete, we're always searching for somebody to complete us. When, after a few years or a few months of a relationship, we find that we're still unfulfilled, we blame our partners and take up with somebody more promising. This can go on and on-series polygamy- until we admit that while a partner can add sweet dimensions to our lives, we each of us, are responsible for our own fulfillment. Nobody else can provide it for us, and to believe otherwise is to delude ourselves dangerously and to program for eventual failure every relationship we enter.

For us singletons...i believe this provides good advice and i can see myself in some of this!! Not as much recently as it has been in the past though! Anyway, if anyone wants good reading i strongly suggest Tom Robbins. I'm on my third book so far...i haven't read this much in a long time!! : ) I've like everything that i've read by him but i do suggest Still Life with Woodpecker more than Half Asleep in Frog Pajamas!! but either one is good! : )

Maybe i'll start blogging more...that will give me something to do in my spare time and also will keep me thinking...and not thinking to much on things that will make me freak out!! which is also been happening to me!! Hopefully everyone know what that is like, at least every girl....if not, well....its probably better for you!! : )

October 27th is the Halloween party date....mark your calendars now and start preparing your costume....i'm coming to my party as Strawberry Shortcake!! Hooray for old school!

Well we are back from another trip to New Orleans!! It was a good trip but not anything close to the last two trips but i'm extremely glad that i went. I came to a couple of decisions about what the future holds....there are a few problems with school at this point!! : ( I'm hoping that i can talk to someone and get it worked out but we will have to see!! I also have a job interview on Tuesday. I'm excited about it...i don't know if i'm excited because of the job or because its a job. I know people there so hopefully something good with come from it.

Went out tonight and saw Little Miss Sunshine again. I swear that is one of the funniest movies out right now!! It is without a doubt an owner....i will need to own it!!

Has anyone read any Tom Robbins???? I started one of his books during the trip and it is great. I have about 75 pages left but i'm loving it!! I'll give you some quotes from it: The book is Half Asleep in Frog Pajamas

*The Fool is potentially everybody, but not everybody has the wisdom or the guts to play the Fool. A lot of folks don't know what's in that bag they're carrying. And they're all too willing to trade it for cash. Inside the bag, they have every tool they need to facilitate their life's journey, but they won't even open it up and glance inside. Subconsciously, the goal of all of us out of control primates is essentially the same, but let me assure you of this: the only ones who'll ever reach that goal are the ones who have the courage to make fools of themselves along the way.
*Why aren't we as smart when we wake up as we are in our dreams?
*Good-bye, melting pot, hello, chamber pot
*...you should never hesitate to trade your cow for a handful of magic beans (this is my personal favorite : )

There are more but i will spare you for now : )

I'm also listening to some good new music...i love new music : )

Whose ready for Friday??? I know i am!!

This weekend was a long one for me!! Friday night i went to a wedding of some of my college friends. One of them was in the cello section and the other i was roommates with for a while. While i love them and everyone else thats had weddings recently...i'm sick of weddings!! But what made this wedding a little worse was that i was with some of my old college friends and all they talked about was their kids and who all else i was in college with had kids!! I honestly thought i was going to hurt myself. And it all of the sudden put me in this world where i felt like i was the only one!! So then i went and hung out with another friend from college and he then tells me that his ex (who i am friends with, or thought i was) is now married too. What the hell...everyone needs to stop this insanity for my sanity : ) okay, now that i've vented about that a bit i'm feeling better.

I'm still looking for another job. I've got several leads and am hopeful that one of them will work out. I'm even going to apply for a job teaching algebra....yes....algebra!! but its okay, i like math and am good at it!! It would without a doubt be different!! And thank you so much to all of those helping me in this job hunt!! I will keep everyone posted.

But because at the moment i don't have a job that is making me any money so i'm going to go to new orleans next week. This will be my third trip and i'm starting to get excited.

In 10 years....

*I've not gotten married and have not had kids!! This is what my ten year reunion has taught me : ) I am totally not the same person i was in high school, which is awesome....but it seemed that all the so called "popular" people were the exact same (with some extra baggage : ) They are even still best friends with each other...which isn't bad just weird. Its also weird to see these same people you saw every day, some since elementary school, again....as "adults". I see them exactly as they were then....maybe thats bad but thats how it is!! I also find it weird that we'll all be pretty much connected all of our lifes. I mean we are all going our different ways but we will continue to get together to just see what people are up to. Does this happen with anything else? It doesn't happen for college!! It was just a really weird weekend for me and i can't even really explain all the weirdness i felt. I guess i'm glad i went....and i'll probably go to the next one too....maybe just because i'm noisy : ) I do know one thing...i'm glad i don't look like i did in high school : ) Thats probably bad to say but o well!!

Christina..thanks for letting me borrow your dress....i'm getting a lot of good use out of it : ) Next i'll be borrowing the yellow one : )

To all my dear friends...I do love you and I miss you and i promise once things get back to normal i will start being around again : )

Today I do feel like i've been hit by a bus though...the medicine i took is making me feel funny too!! Horray!!

A myspace note from george of the flaming lips!! what kind of freak show are we bringing???? ideas people, we need ideas!!


Hey All!

I just want to let you know we're filming the September 15th show!!!
Film crews will be in the parking lot and audience... Please feel free to bring the freak show!

George

I've filled out the fafsa form....i had originally decided not to try to get money help but then realized that that is a stupid idea!! So hopefully things work out with that....if they don't i'm not sure what i'm going to do : ) I will have to go to plan B, which is come up with another plan A!!

I've decided to get a couple of PT jobs....as of the moment i've only got one (lakeshore learning center on may) but i am currently looking for another. I've applied at several places and we will see what comes of them. I'm also going to try to teach as many students as possible. This will also give the me options of going on the other New Orleans trips that i didn't think i was going to have!! And this makes me very happy!!

I also just sent in the paperwork for my 10 year reunion!! Man, i don't feel that old that's for sure....part of me is looking forward to this just to see people, but i wasn't popular in high school and no one really knew who i was and i really didn't know who they were so it could be interesting. I've been doing some high school reunion research online and its kind of fun. Maybe I'll have some interesting stories after next weekend.... : ) okay, i doubt it!! Maybe i went to high school with my future husband...man, that is even funnier!! : )

I went and took a step class the other day....holy shit do i hurt!! it was tons of fun and i can't wait until the next one but shit, my body hasn't hurt this much in a long time...so now it is time for me to go to be so i can try to recover some of my mobility!!

Good night dear friends that i hope to see and hang out with soon!!

So, I love the internet....its great....many great things at the tip of your fingers....if you can think of them!! thats the part i don't like....you have to actually come up with what you are searching for!! Now this may not make sense but go with me....in magazines and newspapers, there are all kinds of things that you didn't even know you wanted to know...you just turn the page and its there. I'm looking for a job...i got to jobsok.com and find many things if i know the right words to search for...but if i don't i just go around in circles....but if i look in the paper, most of the same jobs are on 4-5 pages and in somewhat of an order and much easier just to skim thru....and there are recipes in magazines that i'm like, that would be awesome but when i go online to get recipes i have to know what i want....i never know what i want when i'm looking for recipes!! So i hope magazines and newspapers and even books never go out of style while i'm alive!! I like finding new things that i don't have to have the right words for.

For the first time tonight i made it to shimmers. now i've heard a lot about this snowcone place and everyone says thats its the best in town...but i had yet to try it and was wondering how any snowcone could be better than another...but its true!! Shimmers is better and i think its because they mix the syrup in with the ice instead of just putting the syrup on top of the ice!! It was really good and then the 5 gummy bears didn't hurt anything either : )

It was a sad, sad day in the world of my little black schnauzer yesterday!! He is no longer a man...or going to offically be a man!! He was a little drained last night, not to much energy after such a surgery but tonight he seems to be doing 1,000 times better : )

I'm in the process of writing a short story...and i think i'm kind of liking it!! If it turns out worth reading i will post it for all to enjoy. If it turns out not worth reading then forget i wrote anything : )