Well, its almost march

I looked at the calendar today and went oh crap....march starts tomorrow...that means, i'm not going to eat chocolate, so i just ate the last chocolate truffle egg....I just keep telling myself, this is going to be way healthier for me : )

Band practice went well....we are going to be rocking in the streets before you know it...

Lets take a quick review of my new years resolutions...

1. i'm still a member of a gym...have i gone 4 times a week...no i haven't been i have been going as much as a i can...even when i don't really feel like it : )

2. i'm still not eating meat.. : )

3. i still haven't had any pop : )

4. i read, about a boy this month and it was really good, i'm going to read how to be good for march...

5. i am still seeing my therapist and doing things to build confidence...which i'm sure you will be filled in on later : )

6. we are working on the business plan of our venue...things are going well here too : )

7. i'm working on paying off somethings to start putting back more money for england...sometimes i think if i would just sit out a couple season of soccer, it would about cover it but i am a soccer junkie, so no way will i ever do that...ok, there is one way that i can think of that i would quit soccer, but it will not be discussed here : )

A friend found me these note pads : )

Sunday

If i had the ability to do one thing....i think it would be the ability to slap sense into people...and there are two people in my life right now that i would do that to...

1. a friend of mine, who has been broken up with this guy for about a year....he comes around when he needs something and is sleeping with several people and yet she still comes whenever he calls
2. do you ever see people that are so right for each other and it just makes you sick that bull shit is happening...well, there is another friend of mine that i want to to just slap and be like, open your damn eyes, and realize what you have let go. (for those of you who might think this has something to do with me, it does not : )

Do you ever just get hit by a realization that is so obvious but it just hit you...like this morning, i was driving and thinking about something and it just hit me, that what i've always waited for in my life was to meet someone and be like....wham...this is the person i'm supposed to be with, and then just live happily ever after...well, it hit me this morning, first that i've thought like that and then that, that doesn't happen....you have to work at it, and its all about meeting new people and being open to new people.

Our first band practice, for the band with no name yet, is tomorrow night...this is exciting...although i was made fun of yesterday because i'm playing the bass and "that's easy"
: ) but screw them : ) Actually i've been made fun of a lot lately....hum...



Also, we won our soccer game yesterday....it was a really good game, but the other team was really mean....we even came back from behind to win....I'm going to stop being negative about my soccer teams...go team....

Okay, i think i've caught up on my blog writing, now i just need to catch up on my blog reading...

Saturday : )

I got something wonderful...a sewing machine...i've made several things already, including a skirt, i love making skirts....i really do have an idea in my head about a skirt with felt circles : ) Yeah, laugh it up... : ) I would take a picture of it when it is done and put it on the blog, only problem is...i think my camera is broken....this really sucks, but it is totally something that would happen to me...i think i'm going to trade it out for my brothers though....shhh, don't tell him : ) I've been listening to death cab for cutie...i think i like it better than postal service...so here and now i'm going to post lyrics...this is passenger seat

i roll the window down and then begin to breathe in the darkest country road and the strong scent of evergreen from the passenger seat as you are driving me home. then looking upwards i strain my eyes and try to tell the difference between shooting stars and satellites from the passenger seat as you are driving me home. "do they collide?" i ask and you smile. with my feet on the dash the world doesn't matter. when you feel embarrassed then i'll be your pride when you need directions then i'll be the guide for all time. for all time.



The lyrics just make me comfortable...its another one of those songs that i think....when i find who i'm supposed to be with, i'm going to feel like this song makes me feel....i'm not exactly sure if that makes sense but it does to me : )

Friday

So, i haven't really written anything in a while....so i'm going to post three post today to make up for it : ) So nothing really happened on Friday, that i can recall....i did hang out with a friend of mine that i hadn't seen in a while....it was good but kind of weird, she is the ex wife of one of my friends and she was telling me some things that made me feel different about my friend. Not that i don't like him but its just weird how you think you know someone and your really don't : ) I guess we all have our own shit....we went to the loony bin and got to laugh a lot so that was really good, and its always crazy to me how you can not see someone for a long time and you get together and its just like you saw each other yesterday. : )



I used to really love rainbow brite...

change

I'm a girl of change ....so i've changed my template and i'll see if i like it : )

go me : )

I have officially learned my first song on bass guitar....very cool, i'm loving it and i just can't stop....Our first song as a new band is going to be young pilgrims by the shins....this bass thing really isn't that hard....i've played this song, over and over and over...i just can't stop...i'll mess something up and then i have to go back and play the whole song again. I worked on it this afternoon at school and something always sounds really funky to me, so i thought i may just be out of tune with the cd, well, it turns out i was missing a note which was making the chord weird....I've probably played the song about 30 times just today.....awesome ; ) I probably should work on writing some cello lines for a show i'm playing next saturday but i have until tuesday to do that, there is really nothing like procrastination. and i'm great at that : )

idiot....

Assume you are a 8th grade orchestra teacher...you have kids that sign up to play a solo for solo and ensemble contest....two days before the contest, one of your students doesn't even know what he is playing....so what do you do...you, of course, blame it on the student...it wasn't your fault as a teacher that your student didn't have music to play, and that you didn't even know he didn't have any music....he should just go out and get it himself, of course because 8th graders do that, they are really mature and normally keep all of their shit together.....i'm a little on the pissed off side with the guy i work with....

hum

Korn guitarist has left the band...I had some really upset kids today... Guitarist Brian "Head" Welch, a founding member of Korn, has left the band and has rededicated his life to Christianity, according to the group's management. "Korn has parted ways with guitarist Brian 'Head' Welch, who has chosen Jesus Christ as his savior, and will be dedicating his musical pursuits to that end," a statement from the band reads. "Korn respects Brian's wishes, and hopes he finds the happiness he's searching for." From gotkorn.com



I felt truly overwhelmed last night....i was going through my cds and realized that there is so much good music out there that i may not get a chance to hear it all : )....i realize this does sound stupid but its what i do....i personally have cds that i have listened to a couple of time and then put them aside because something else came along....so my goal is to listen to all the music i've only glanced at....i started today with interpol...i've had the cd for a while and just haven't given it much of a chance...I think this project is going to take me a while...

I've been doing somethings that have gotten me thinking about what I want in a man...somethings that i might eventually share, but not today : ) So here is what i've come up with and there are only two of them. 1. I need someone is helps others, someone who will do community service things, help out his friends, help out his family, etc. Second, and i bet anyone that reads this blog will know what i'm about to say....i need someone who loves music, so they don't get bored with all my music bullshit : ) hum...i hope he's out there : )

Also, the latest in breaking news...i'm going to play in another band : ) Happy, Happy, Joy, Joy!!! Some friends of mine are going to start working on cover pieces to work up to writing our own stuff...this is going to be great...and i get to play bass, i've always wanted to play electric bass...hopefully we can pick a few songs and get this started in the next couple of weeks : )

Ednas

This is Edna....or lisa...or who knows....her bar had its 16th anniversary last night and it was a party....tons of people....its was fun....we meet new people and got everyone to dance....and had some lunch boxes. fun stuff : ) Edna gets up on the bar and dances to great balls of fire....




I didn't write yesterday...that is weird...i even had the day off and everything....i didn't really get the day off...i ended up having to take my grandpa to get his false teeth fixed, in a town about an hour away....so most of my day off was spent with him....but it wasn't to bad....i did get to go work out....which is great....i didn't go last week and so i was really needing it...i ended up running a mile on a treadmill (along with other things) ....i'm very proud of myself.. : ) I just heard that Mogwai has a new cd out today...i guess its more like a greatest hit album...i'm just telling you what the woxy.com people are say....

this morning

J....I've really got to leave early
Chrissy.....I love church, it give me a chance to chat with all my friends during the preaching
Jon....i'm sitting with some major weirdos
Jenn...i think i'll make a skirt with felt circles
Maria.....i think i'm going to take this skirt back tomorrow
Jeff....I'm hungry
Aaron...man, chrissy is a cunt
Old Lady...I'm Old

We get a lot out of church : )

falling for you

my hero

jolly ranchers are good

So we lost another soccer game....but its okay....we do have a practice tomorrow so who knows we might get better : )



This is my new hero....he's my knight in yellow/red armor... : ) He was in Amandas car all this time : )

Okay, on a serious note....today i met a lady that is having some problems....she is 70 years old and very lonely....has no family to speak of....she had someone buy her some laundry detergent and she had a very allergic reaction to it....most of her body was covered in rashes....i saw them....she says she hasn't been sleeping or able to eat, she can barely walk....she says the doctors aren't doing anything for her....so she asked me to keep her in my prayers....so i'm asking you if you pray keep Ms. Battles in your prayers : )

woxy

I just found a really cool indie internet radio station....i'm really digging it....it is woxy.com..... i've only been listening to it for about 10 minutes but its cool....



Okay, i have to get up early tomorrow....i should really stop blogging...but i do have to mention that firefox is the best...you can have several different pages open at once and i just really like that...it also does other cool things but having several pages open at once is my favorite feature...

a cool name.... : )

so if you are in high school....and you get to pick any restaurant in oklahoma...and you get to go with your cool orchestra teacher....where would you go....you can go anywhere....well no doubt you would pick IHOP....I mean who wouldn't : ) I just don't understand sometimes......



i have several blogs that i read on a daily basis....actually, because i'm so addicted it ends up being several times a day....so i'm going to link you to them so you can enjoy them too... Sweet T Time, She's just a mess, tonypierce.com + busblog which is probably one of my favorites, Nothing Special, 6767.com which is dave navarros blog, and anticipate intense trauma

everyone should check them all out : )

"I love scotch. Scotchy, scotch, scotch. Down it goes, into my belly... "

TGIF

I have no kids today at school....and right now the other teacher i work with isn't here either...very exciting...and i don't have school on monday....i'm planning to pay tribute to the presidents by .....okay, i'm not really going to pay tribute to the presidents...but i'm glad we have presidents so that i can have the day off....sometimes i love being a teacher....

'You know, like nunchuck skills, bow hunting skills, computer hacking skills....girls only want boyfriends who have great skills" : ) I love this movie....now i'm going to go organize...

nut shell

my day in a nut shell.... went to school, threw some music and a baton at some kids, wore my sweater inside out for most of the day, almost finished about a boy, taught a lesson, came home, taught another double lesson...which is what you get to listen to above....went out with friends.....
we went to the okc art museum theatre (yes, oklahoma does have an art museum : )...we saw Academy Award Nominated Shorts....and really they were all really good, but i'll give you the low down....

Gopher Broke....a animated short by Jeff Fowler...this was funny, it was about a gopher trying to get food and always losing....he ends up getting squashed by a cow...trust me its funny...

Two Cars, One Night...Taika Waititi & Ainsley Gardiner....This one was about three kids being left in cars outside of a motel....a lot of it i couldn't understand and most of the time i was thinking, who would go into a motel and party why their kids are sitting in the car....hum....well anyway one of the boys and the girl become friendly....

Birthday Boy...Sejong Park....This one almost made me cry, it is animated, you mainly watch a little korean kid playing war....when he gets home there is a package on the front porch that has his dad dog tags and a boat and his dads wallet....the little boy didn' t have a clue that his dad wasn't coming back....very sad

Little Terrorist....Ashvin Kumar....This was just reminded me that everyone is equal...i can't really explain it....it has a lot to do with different cultures coming together, and you just are reminded that even though you are different, you are still a human....

Ryan....Chris Landreth....this one was about Ryan Larkin, who was a Canadian Animator....this one was in my top two.....it was animated telling the life of Ryan, and how lifes problems can consume you and make you no longer human....and sometime you just can't get out of it....this is one that i would really like to see again.....i need to read up on Ryan Larkin.....

7:35 in the Morning....Nacho Vigalondo....this one was great...it is about a lady who comes into the same restaurant each morning....she has an admirer....when she comes in one morning everything is different....there are two people by the restroom one has a guitar and the other a keyboard....everyone is staring at her and acting weird....all the sudden from behind a poll, a man break into song and starting singing about her....everyone in the restaurant has their lines to sing and even dance ...later we find out he has a bomb attached to himself, the police end up coming and he ends up blowing up....but trust me this is funny and worth seeing, even if you know the ending....where does one find these films...

Rex Steele: Nazi Smasher....Alex Woo....from WooHoo films : ).....this is animated about an american super guy who goes around killing nazis....it was really funny...

Wasp...Andrea Arnold....this one is about at 23 year old who has 4 kids, can't feed them, can't bath them, and she meets an old flame and leave them outside a bar why she is trying to hook up with this guy...the whole film i'm sitting there thinking that something is going to happen to one of the kids and i was going to be pissed....i was already pissed that they didn't have food....i have a real problem with child neglect...when making out with the guy in the car she hears one of her daughters yelling and runs to them...the baby had a wasp in his mouth....everything worked out and the guy she was trying to hook up with fed her kids....that made everything a little better... : )

I hope everyone enjoyed my over view of the movies : ) Go see them if you can : )



This is from Ryan... it was very cool....

soccer

well the losing streak...


continues


We got our asses kicked.....


I can say we tried really hard...i feel like i haven't run that hard in a long time.....o well, its a really good thing we are good losers.....except Amanda who was just a bitch.. : )

I'm making all kinds of friends in these blogs today....today, i had a bad music listening day....i couldn't find anything to listen to....so what do i turn to when nothing sounds good....you guessed it, the band of all bands.....Radiohead : ) yea!!!!! Hurray!!!!!! Yippee!!!!! and you know what it worked out well for me..... : )

I resolved something else today....after March 1st no more chocolate....this is going to be rough...but i can do it : )

Maybe he wants to be kissed..... : )

mike

If you see this man, touch him A LOT....he LOVES to be touched. : )

who knew

Male Flies and Male Monkeys Are Just Dogs

In articles in recent issues of Current Biology, researchers separately studying the dance fly and the rhesus macaque monkey concluded that males will be males. The male dance fly was found by a team from the University of Western Australia to sometimes present a female with worthless tokens for the opportunity to mate with her, but by the time she discovered their worth, he had already hit and run. A team from Duke University found that the male monkey will forgo his own rewards (juice) in exchange for being permitted to view pictures of female monkeys' bottoms. [Discovery-Animal Planet, 1-11-05] [LiveScience.com, 1-28-05] From News of the Weird

This made me smile : )

What the hell is that above their head...a very large green ass with two ingrown hairs.. : )

the cupcake : )

bright eyes

Bright eyes was good last night....it bothered me a lot that the censored out the word damn...fuck, i can see, but damn....Connor did a nice job of smashing his guitar too...i really like the host....craig ferguson....he was dumb funny, thats the kind of funny i see myself....i liked that he interviewed connor for a while....i always hate it that the musician just play and never get to say anything....connor didn't have a lot to say...which is kind of ironic to me because he has so much to say in him music....he picked a song that was very anti-war...i wonder if he did that on purpose to try to get a point across or he just wanted to play that song....he played road to joy off of i'm wide awake its morning....heres the amazon site to hear the song if you want...its a great album...

blah...now i have to go back to work... : )

my top several

So pitchfork made me start thinking about what my top cds would be for 2000-2004, so here is what i came up with....the problem is that i probably have more than this i just can't think right now...so i may be adding more later.

1. Iron and Wine....Endless numbered days, this made it about all radiohead...that means a lot
2. Radiohead....Hail to the Thief...this one was hard, because i really like amnesiac too, but i think i enjoy this one more
3. Sufjan Stevens....Seven Swans
4. Sigur Ros..... ( )
5. Badly Drawn Boy....Hour of the Bewilderbeast
6. Bright Eyes...Fevers and Mirrors
7. Lancaster Sound...Hapless ledger : ) oh...just kidding...this was my old band : )

as i get down the list i start thinking that maybe it wouldn't be this order...all i do know is that i would put the iron and wine cd first...

I went to do a studio recording for someone yesterday....They didn't have any music ready for us and they didn't really have an idea about what they wanted....it was really frustrating because i didn't know the song or the people that wrote the song or what they wanted...so we spent an hour trying to figure out what i was going to play and it ended up being a total of about 3 notes and then we spent an hour recording...man, i had forgotten how draining it is....I was extremely disappointed with the results...later i got the thinking that when i've gone into the studio for recordings before, i'm know exactly what is going on and i feel really good about what i'm doing and i've worked on it outside of the studio, that right there saves tons of recording time....when i was recording the hapless ledger, we laid down two tracks for each song (just doubling the part) and laid down about 10 songs in maybe 4 hours....maybe....lesson here is make sure the people that want you to record know what they want.. : ) Hey but i got paid...

Bad news for all unicorns fans....they have officially broken up... : ( I like the unicorns...their cd is not one that i can listen to all the time, but i like it....and it is really hard to put back in the cd case : )...sorry there is only one person that might understand that....i think their first mistake was touring with arcade fire : )

Now i'm trying to stay up to see bright eyes on the late late show....its so going to be worth it...: )

fuck valentines day

Normally i hate valentines day....for the same reason all single females hate valentines day....but i'm not really having any problems with it today...the kids were a little on the wired side, but that is to be expected....i have great friends and i guess i realized that valentines day doesn't have to be about "girl/guy relationship" but just about relationships in general....so to all my friends, I love you and happy valentines day.....but anyway, in honor of today i am posting two song lyrics...the first is iron and wine Naked as we came, which i believe is the best love song ever written....and the next is touchin up by gomez, no real explanation needed : )



Naked as we came
She says "wake up, it's no use pretending"
I'll keep stealing, breathing her
Birds are leaving over autumn's ending
One of us will die inside these arms
Eyes wide open, naked as we came
One will spread our ashes round the yard

She says "if I leave before you, darling
Don't you waste me in the ground"
I lay smiling like our sleeping children
One of us will die inside these arms
Eyes wide open, naked as we came
One will spread our ashes round the yard

Touchin' up
I've been touched now
I don't believe it
Movin' much closer now
Here's my touch
Now please receive it
Let's do some more touchin' up
Let's do some more touchin' up
Well, he got sings to sing you
Made me feel good when the others didn't
And he got everything now
Made me come back when the others didn't
Uh-huh, ooh-ooh
Know your mind
There's something quite familiar in your eyes
Know your mind
There's something quite familiar
Something quite familiar
Coming around the bend
Coming around the bend
Stay out on your own
Made me feel good when the others didn't
Stay out on your own
Made me come back when the others didn't
Stay out on your own
Made me feel good when the others didn't
Stay out on your own
Made me come back when the others didn't
Uh-huh, uh-huh, uh-huh, ooh-ooh
Comin' around again
All I wanna do's some touchin' up
Please let me do some touchin' up

Nothing really

I really dislike, when you are talking to someone and they look like it is a bother to talk to you....like you are the last person on earth they want to talk to....Okay, i may be boring but if you are my friend at least act like you care : ) OK, i'm done.... : )

pitchforkmedia.com has a 100 best albums of 2000-2004....its a pretty good list....the two best things about it are that brittany spears, jessica simpson, ashlee simpson, etc...are not on it, the other best thing is that Kid A is number 1. I don't know if it is the best album in the last 4 years, but i know that i really like it. i have to turn up the volume really loud on the first song...it makes me ear all happy, they get all tingly.... : )

silence

I read this today in our church "prayer guide" and really liked it...

"Silence frees us from the need to control others. One reason we can hardly bear to remain silent is that it makes us feel so helpless. We are accustomed to relying upon words to manage and control others. A frantic stream of words flows from us in an attempt to straighten others out. We want so desperately for them to agree with us, to see things our way. We evaluate people, judge people, condemn people. We devour people with our words. Silence is one of the deepest Disciplines of the Spirit simply because it puts the stopper on that." From Freedom of Simplicity by Richard J Foster

I was thinking the other day that I'm going to try harder not to talk about people...i don't think i do it a lot but when i do it makes me feel bad....everyone has their issues and problems and i don't have a right to judge them for that : ) Just being silent is better : )

The music venue meeting went well today....we were minus a member...we had a member down (sorry, sometimes I think in so, i married an axe murder lines)....but we began to write a list of other music venues that we will be competing with.....as of yet, we haven't come up with one that is going to be anywhere near the same realm as us, we are going to incorporate all the arts and there is really nothing like that here. I do believe we are going to need to hire a professional to help us with some of this....i was looking at the business plan after our meeting and holy shit, there is a lot of shit to do, and some of it none of us know how to do....i really do think it is going to help that we are not doing the restaurant, but still, there is tons to do. We are still working on names and i've nearly got the mission statement finished...if it is taking us this long to finish the mission statement, then it will take us 20 years to open up our venue.... : ) We do have a location idea which is really cool...

manchurian candidate

Its nice to have a relaxed friday night with a good friend, a movie, pizza and a bottle of wine. I usually end up drinking most of the wine though. We watched the manchurian candidate tonight....it was fucked up....i loved it.....it is a movie that i'm going to be thinking about, i didn't really like the ending, because it didn't really feel like it ended, but maybe after i think about it i will grow to like it.

I was at school until 4 today...thats a long day for me, i usually leave right after 2 (i'm spoiled). I have a student that is dying to switch from viola to cello...i really don't think he realizes how hard that is....but i agreed to teach him. He couldn't wait until next week so we had to have a lesson on today...if he actually practices, he will be pretty good. We'll see if he practices, at the high school age they are kind of flight. I did get a lot of reading time in while waiting for him to show up though.

I've been reading About a Boy, the person that lent me the book said it was better than the movie, and i think i agree with him. I have around 100 pages left but i'm digging it....so far it has stuck pretty close to the movie, but it just seems to go more in depth and the relationship between Marcus and Will seems more real....I was reading this part of the book and it made me laugh...This is Marcus thinking about his mother (mum) and Will getting together....

"if a girl and a boy met, and they didn't have a boyfriend or a girlfriend, and they both looked all right, and they didn't mind each other, then they might as well go out together. What was the point in not? "

It just seems so innocent and simple...if only it were that simple....it makes me smile : ) One of the things i love more than anything about the movie is the music.....Badly Drawn Boy did the whole score...it is great....the soundtrack has one of my favorite songs of his.....

Above me, Below me
Don't wanna give
Don't wanna steer
Don't wanna be anything I'm not
You take answers
I give questions
Like some rolling monologue
Wanna be the one to say
That today could be the day
A pity to believe in what
You know is what you know
I will take you as you are
Please accept me as I am
Find your lonely life bizzare
Know it's above you know I know it's below me
Always ??
Don't wanna live life in your shoes
I don't feel I know the way
Feeling you, giving me directions I don't need
Up and up and round we go
First it's fast and then we're slow
Could u connect with my interlect
I wont take you as you are
Please don't take me as I am
Find your lonely life bizzare
You'll see this in love
You'll see this in life
For an all year round reception
For a love with no connection
Knowing you, knowing my

Ignorance to more then life
Know it's above you, I know it's below me
I will take you as you are
Please accept me as I am
Find your lonely life bizzare
Know it's above you know I know it's below me
I will take you as you are
Please accept me as I am
There'll be something in the wind
To show us the light and tell us we're wrong
I want to move on

At his concert that I saw in August he said this was one of his favorite songs too....which is just cool. I just really love badly drawn boy....his music is real...he lives his music....

high school

So this didn't work out like i'd hoped it would but in my high school orchestra class today we spent an hour writing our own piece....with 20 people this is hard to do....it does actually sound pretty good live....on the audio, i really can't even tell if its playing, but i'll leave it on here just in case....i'm going to re-work the piece and maybe we will play it for our next concert....who knows....i need to figure out a way to make the time more efficient when doing something like this...i'll work on it.

I still smell like gasoline....blah :)

This is crookshanks, named after the harry potter cat... she really is cute, she just doesn't take pictures very well, she kind of looks like devil cat in this picture....and she is a pain in the ass.... i think i have figured out this posting pictures thing....this is great, there are so many new things to post now.....i'm going to quit for today...i'm so addicted to this it is unreal, maybe i should have given up blogging for lent : )

Oreo

This is oreo she is my cute, well tempered cat....

pictures

I'm just trying this picture thing out....I'm not sure anyone in this picture is going to like the fact that i am posting it but what do you do....halloween is my favorite holiday, its just fun to be someone/something you are not....


halloween 2004

afternoon adventure

i smell like gasoline....and i think i ingested a little bit too....let me explain....a friend called and was like, do you want to run some errands with me?....so i went....most everything went smoothly, she checked out a book of a pregnant lady over 30 that was completely nude...that was about the most exciting thing that happened so far....well, we're on the way home about a block from my house and the car dies....her husband didn't have any gas in his car and the meter thing is broken...so we walk to my house and get my car and gas thing....the next thing i know the gas is flying out of the gas can and all over me....blah...it really was funny...i told you i wasn't a good story teller....but anyway, i will probably smell like gas for a few days because it takes a while for that smell to go away. I should have gone to work out.... : )

i did get a call from "Luke" to come record some cello lines on a cd he is recording.....so i'm going to do that on sunday....

lent

So i grew up in the church of christ...and they don't do anything with the lent season. I've been going to churches the last few years that do celebrate and I just really don't get it....not because i don't understand the concept behind it, probably because i didn't grow up doing it. I've given up things for lent before and i just didn't really feel like it was that big of a deal....maybe i've given up the wrong things, or did something wrong. I don't know...so I was going to give up my virginity this year, but i decided against that...not enough time between now and Easter : )....then i was going to give up chocolate, but i really don't think i eat enough of it to really miss it...and i already don't drink pop or eat meat...so i've decided to sit this lent season out....i wonder why church of christ doesn't do anything for lent....hum....


This is my aquapet Tu....i got him for christmas....

tegan and sara

So all i do for lunch is check things out online...lately i have been looking at all the music magazine websites to see what they have, so today i was on Spin. I found twin sister that i think are really good, i really enjoyed there performance that they have on the spin website....they did an acoustic set and play 5 songs. I really like speak slow....but i went to amazon to check into buying the cd, because you couldn't buy it on their website, teganandsara.com, not sure why. I listened to a little bit of the cd and i'm not sure if i enjoy it as much as i did the acoustic set, but i'm tempted to buy it anyway...i don't normally like female singers, so who knows. Everyone should check them out and let me know what you think....

I am in a quartet that plays weddings...we had a couple over to my house tonight to play some things for them to make sure they wanted us in their wedding, so we played for them and all went well....so we started reading some music for a wedding we are playing in July and the bride has someone writing out the quartet parts for us....i believe this is going to be the most interesting wedding i've ever played because one of the pieces we have so far is a Bjorak song...and the quartet arrangement is really very cool....i'm excited to play this wedding.

more computer : )

I just got my new computer, very exciting, except i can't stop.....i have things to do...i have people coming over...i need to get ready for these people coming over and i just can't stop....

computer

my computer at school is so frustrating...its a mac and i normally like mac, sometimes better than pc but i don't like this one...blah.

i'm addicted to the internet....i just can't stop anymore. i feel better about being in front of my computer all the time then sitting in front of the tv all the time. i guess i feel like i can gain knowledge from the computer that i don't get from most of the tv shows i watch...

i may have found some cool music today at lunch...i'll keep you posted.

dude, i'm getting a dell....it should be here either thursday or friday....i'm very excited.

Iron and Wine

I stayed up late last night to see iron and wine on last call....Sam Beam is amazing...its all about the music with him, which i love. He had an acoustic guitar and a female back up singer....which i'm thinking might have been his sister, but i'm not sure....he keeps his songs simple and you can just tell that he wasn't there for the audience but just to play his music. I actually sat on my couch in silence after he played, even on tv it was moving to me.....i have to go see this man live.

lesson learned

i learned a good lesson this last summer....always be yourself. No matter who you are or how much you want to impress someone, it is better that you hold true to who you are. I was searching online last night and found a really cool t-shirt website, heavytees.com, they have some vintage looking t-shirts that are just fun...and I got to thinking about it and i hardly wore a t-shirt all summer and that just wasn't like me. I really enjoy wearing t-shirts especially when they are really cool or are from a show i've been to. So then that got me thinking....what else did i change, and why did i change? I realized i had changed several things, i wasn't doing things that i love to do (making skirts, going to shows, dancing)....I wouldn't have changed anything that happened this summer, except that i would have been more myself. so why did i change, i guess it was because i wanted to fit into a model, that i had come up with myself. I wanted to be exactly what this person wanted, even though i was giving up myself, and even though i had no clue what this person wanted. But because of this i have learned that its not worth changing who you are to impress people. Change is good and inevitable, but change because its what you want not to please others. If they like you, then they should like you for all of you mistakes, stupidity, dumb stories, and all of the good things you posses. In most people the good things out number the bad things, we just focus more on the bad within ourselves. Maybe if we can just convince ourselves that the good out weighs the bad and that we are worthy, then we wouldn't change for people. We could just be happy being us....Sometimes I feel like i don't know who i am, what i want or how to get it, but i know in my heart that i am a good and caring christian person and extremely worthy of true love....and one of these days a guy will come around that will see that, and i will be strong enough to be myself....

things you learn from buffy

i love buffy the vampire slayer and here are some things i've learned....

1. you can kick major ass in high heels and short skirts
2. its okay to fall in love with vampires with souls....or a chip in their head
3. if the worlds about to end, panic, make a brilliant plan and then kick some ass
4. the british know all
5. you can die twice and still be alive at the end of the season
6. don't sleep with vampires who have a soul because of a curse, because you'll have to kill them.
7. if you bust out into song and dance, it might be because of a demon....



i know all of these have come in very handy in my life.

I had a weird dream about a friend of mine last night....i wake up this morning to him calling me...weird. i hate dreams that make you feel weird all day and this one has....I was reading something on another blog and my insides got all sick, and i know that is has to do with that dream...which i guess is also weird.

num 9....two flats?....b flat major....b and e flat are in the key....the 8th grade is taking a test, i'm not sure what i'm going to do with the 9th grade yet....they won't be here for another 45 minutes, i still have time.

I just found out tomorrow, in celebration of ash wednesday, it going to be "lunch box" night...very exciting....if you have never had a lunch box, you need to. It's a glass of coors light, an amaretto shot and a splash of OJ. You down it like a car bomb...and if you have never had one of those...then never mind : )

Theres a girls soccer game tonight.....hopefully i can prove to myself that i do have some soccer skills...i can't wait until i'm playing three soccer games a week.....

i've written a bunch of nonsense in my blog today....but o well....hi mike : )

Marley

If Bob Marley were alive today he would have been 60 years old yesterday.....
so i've picked my lyrics today in tribute to him.

Three Little Birds
Don't worry about a thing
'Cause ev'ry little thing gonna be alright
Singin', "Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause ev'ry little thing gonna be alright."

Rise up this morning,                                  
Smiled with the rising sun
Three little birds pitch by my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs of melodies pure and true
Sayin', "This is my message to you-u-u."
Singin'...

"Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause ev'ry little thing gonna be al-right."

This probably wouldn't be my favorite song that he did.....no woman, no cry probably would be, 
but i really like this song a lot.  The rollingstone did a whole write up about him and there was a big
reggae festival yesterday to celebrate his birthday...I believe everyone should at least own the legend album...
if you don't have it, you should strongly consider it....  I had to take the picture off, i guess i wasn't supposed to use it : )

superbowl and other things

So i don't watch much football, but i like it and i understand whats going on, and i try to watch the "big" games at least....and i really do like watching OU games, I can get really into them. They are a lot of fun to watch with friends, like we did tonight....but i have a favorite superbowl party, i was living with a band member and another band members sister in law and we threw a super bowl party.....well, we didn't really watch much of the game but a lot of drinking went on. I went to bed early, because I had to get up the next morning and pretend to teach. when i woke up the next morning, i found out, my band member had decided it would be a really good idea to drive some friends home and took my car, he ends up hitting the full trash can and knocks off my side mirror and then tries to blame it on the trash man (i'm sure i should be more politically correct but i can't think of what it would be right now) for not taking the trash the week before.....oh....the superbowl : ) I drove with a side mirror hanging down from my car for about 6 months....fyi, duct tape doesn't work to well for things like that...

Our meeting on Saturday for our music venue went great...i'm getting more and more excited, the ideas just won't stop and they just keep getting better. We have started our mission statement, i'm going to spend sometime this week putting it together. we have made a decision not to have a restaurant but just have a coffee bar with food. That will save us a lot of money and several licenses that we would have to get. we are also going to have a "freak" show several times a year...its going to be great.

I just got the new Lou Barlow....Emoh....i'm going to listen to it for a few days and then i'll write a review on it....so far i'm really liking it....

I also just found out that I'm going to get to play the cello "piece" that Kaki King has inspired me to write at our show on march 18th....i'm very excited....
Its crazy sometimes when there are so many things that are good and that i'm really excited about and theres one or two things that bring everything down....i've been dealing with that a lot lately....i've got to learn just to focus on the things that make me happy and not worry about the other(s)....thats really hard to do sometimes.

okay

i'm officially done...... there are rainbows at the end of storms and i'm going out to find mine. I am stronger than i may seem....(even if, right now, i don't believe that : )

oprah

Once I watched an oprah about your inner self through your decorating...if you take the room you don't like in your house and write down the things you don't like about it, then these are the things you probably don't like about yourself. So i woke up this morning and was laying in bed and realized i really hate this room....so i thought why do i hate it....and i came up with three reasons. 1. its boring 2. it has no rhyme or reason 3. its somewhat childish....as i think about those, i think do i see myself these ways, and to some extent yes i do....with #2, its weird, my whole place doesn't really have any rhyme or reason, but for some reason it really bugs me in the bedroom....hum....well the solution on oprah is just to redo the room and then you will automatically solve these problems, i don't know about that, but i need to do something about the room : ) I'll have to ask my land lord if i can paint, that would help me out.

dreams

I'm not exactly sure why i recalled this...but i tend to have weird dreams....I was just reading News of the Weird and remembered one of my recurring dreams....I have often had dreams about sitting in the back seat of a car, either driving from the back or just sitting there with no one driving, but the car is moving....Most of the time there is no one else in the car but sometimes there will be someone in the passengers seat with no one in the drivers seat.....I like to analyze dreams, but i really don't know what these would mean...maybe I'm to trusting, maybe i realize God is in control, maybe I have these dreams when i feel life is out of control, maybe i'm going insane : ) I'm going to have to give this one more thought....

Sweet nectar from heaven

I have a new obsession.....it is carousel "lollipops"

I've just always called them suckers but I guess it is more
politically correct to call them "lollipops"
Lollipops sounds like something a two year old would say or maybe an older person who didn't get the memo that lollipops are now suckers. The guy I work with says lollipops, but he's just not normal....... anyway : ) ps, my spell check doesn't even recognize lollipops.

The best one is the mint chocolate chip, i just can't get enough....if anyone i know needs one, i have a whole bag ....they are just .50

Man, i'm going to like this whole picture thing....I already really like blogging and now i can add pictures...like i've said before, life is good : )

Good music to listen to on nice, happy, sunny days is Phantom Planet....I've had the new album blaring in my car for two day and i'm loving it....it gives me a happy feeling.

better liger

this is a better liger picture

yea!!!!

I figured out the picture thing too....man...my life is good right now....i just thought this was a funny picture so i added it. Napoleon Dynamite Rocks...... I"m going to go look for more pictures : )

Liger ?

I found out tonight that ligers exist.....i was going to put a picture up on my page but i couldn't figure out how to do it....so i'll link you there....liger......and yes they are bred for their skills in magic...who knew.... I think Napoleon did a great job with his liger

a drop in time

A Drop in time......mercury rev

A year is just a drop in time
It cannot touch the female form in my bed
She is just a friend of mine
In the dark she knows
The touch of my hand
Let the music play like you want it to
Let the sun shine light in your hair
Let the moonlight play
At your feet like a babe
And softly linger there
Her words profane, her mouth divine
I tried to sympathize with both sides
But I was caught, like a fleeting thought,
Stuck inside Leonard Cohen's mind
We met on a beach in Greece
And parted on a rusty Spanish stair
Two birds in the distance fly
They land and they settle down,
Somewhere
A year is just a drop in time
It cannot touch her female form
In my head
She was just a friend of mine
In the dark she knew
The touch of my hand

I was just reading pitchforkmedia.com and found out that mercury rev has a new cd coming out...it won't be released here until May but it looks like the Irish are digging it : ) Although, it doesn't seem that pitchfork likes it much....that is just one persons opinion though...i'll take my chances. So in honor of me find out that they are coming out with a new cd, i have posted lyrics from my favorite mercury rev song : )

music venue

What does Oklahoma need more than anything....let me tell you. A REALLY KICK ASS MUSIC VENUE : ) Its are really good thing i'm working on that.....So, you may ask, what is going to make your music venue more kick ass then the other music venues....well, let me tell you.

1st we are going to bring in "big" name musicians to play once a month (for now, hopefully we will be able to make it at least twice a month later)....now, two words are important in that last part, first musicians....anyone that can not play an instrument or write their own music is not a musician in my book, that may be mean, but its the truth. The other word is "big", this is a relative term really, first because people that are big to me may not be that big to most people...but i swear to you we will never have Ashlee Simpson or Brittany Spears at our venue.

2nd, we are going to bring in all types of music and arts. On Sunday afternoon we will have classical music offered for all those who love classical music, Saturday afternoons are going to have kids day, we will bring in musicians and artist for kids. We will have live music, Thursday-Saturday.....get local and regional music those nights. We will also have nights for theatre, dance and readings. We will also host artist art and maybe even art shows.

3rd, not only are we going have all of these things but we are also going to be coffee house and a restaurant. We are going to keep our doors open late for all of those who would like to get out of the house at night to study or just chill. I know I'm a night person and sometimes would like to be able to go somewhere.

Our decor is going to be modern and artsy. We are going to have a place where people want to come, where music and art are more important than anything else, even coffee..... : ) In the summer of 2006, i hope to see you all there.

Venue Motto: we are going to be cool the rest of our lives : )

holy crap

i had forgotten how much drama goes on in high school. i have spent the last few hours with some on my high school students and they about drove me batty. most of the time i just wanted to laugh at them or tell them that in ten years none of this shit would matter. i was with two girls which is way worse i think. you know how most people would like to send their kids off when they are young and get them back when they are "more mature". i think i want to keep them for their formidable years and get rid of them for those teenage years... : ) They can come back when they are about 18 : )

canada

So I'm thinking that musicians that want to go out on a limb musically should move to canada : )

I saw The Arcade Fire last night on Conan....I was impressed....they did there own thing, which i really liked. They have tons of band members, I believe there were about 8. Which is a lot for a band (except for Polyphonics Spree : )) and they had very unconventional instruments. Not many bands i know have an accordion , but maybe they should. Also two violin players, and a guy that bangs on shit (this reminds me of a band from New York, Skeleton Key)....at one point he lost his drum stick and it hit the lead singer in the face....it just made me wonder how often that happens, probably a lot. The girl that played accordion sang and then they had a "lead" guy who sang and played guitar. Neither of their voices were great but it really worked for what they were doing. One thing that I didn't like at all was the sound, I don't know if it was how they had it mixed at the studio, or how it came out of my tv, but it didn't do them justice at all. The violins over powered everything...but i do know that it is extremely hard to get a good string mix in a "rock" band. Feed backs a bitch... : ) I haven't heard the cd yet, i've heard mixed reviews from several people...I am going to get it though, and see what i think. I wonder what Allen Alda thought of the arcade fire : )

I've been listening to a cd by Kaki King, she is an amazing guitar player. On her website you can watch her play and she is all over. She's doing things i've never seen done before. it looks to me like she has a classical guitar background. the only reason i assume that is because she is wearing fake finger nails on her right hand. Usually only classical guitar players do that....i could be totally wrong though.....it wouldn't be the first time.... : ) but it might be the last : ) She has inspired me to try to some different things like that with the cello. I actually started working on a "song" last night....we'll see how it goes.

Go the the murder by death website, the one song that i heard was really pretty cool. It sounds like they have a cellist and maybe a violinist (or the cellist is playing in the high register). I didn't get to watch the videos, my home computer and my work computer are both stupid!!!!! Its going to be really cool to play with a band that also has string player.

I'm not going to go to the Bright Eyes concert in Ft Worth and it makes me want to cry : ( woe is me.....

soccer 411

Soccer is a very difficult sport to understand.....
if your team has the ball then one must put the ball in the goal
if your team does not have the ball then one must keep the ball from going in the goal
for some reason, all ability to play soccer tonight just left......

I looove gomez : )

todays song lyrics- Get Miles- Gomez

I love this island but this island’s killing me
Sitting here in silence, man I don’t get no peace
The waves upon my shore take me away piece by piece
Gonna leave everything I know gonna head out towards the sea
Jump off this island gonna head out towards the sea
I love this city man but this city’s killing me
Sitting here in all this noise man I don’t get no peace
The cars below my street take me away piece by piece
Gonna leave everything I know gonna head out towards the sea
Gonna leave this city man, gonna head out towards the sea
Get miles away
I love this planet but this planet’s killin’ me
Sitting here in all this grass man I don’t get no weed
The sweat comin’ from my pores take me away piece by piece
Gonna leave everything I know gonna head to the galaxy
Gonna leave this planet man, gonna head to the galaxy
Get miles away, Get miles

I just love gomez and i was listening to this song last night and was thinking how good it was. I know I've felt like just up and leaving everything. I don't really feel like that now though : )

yea for shows

The Caverns, a band i thought would never have another show.....has a show. Its going to be at the conservatory (big shock) on March 18th (spring break for us teachers) at 8:00. This is very exciting, although we haven't practiced since about October and we don't have a drummer at the current moment but all will works its way out. We are going to be playing with murder by death, the snake the cross the crown and subarachnoid space....maybe if i can figure out how to link things than i will like their website here.....wouldn't that be cool.... : )

I went last night and played with the community orchestra.....it was fun....not exactly good though. When you can go in and sight read better than the regular players who have been playing it for a few weeks thats saying something....but they love to play and thats what really matters to me. I hear in the phil, people are always fighting and its not that fun, so this will do for now. The concert music is pretty good though....symphony #1 Bizet, a wagner, and a guitar concerto by some contempary composer, this piece is pretty cool. I also start rehearsals tomorrow for an opera i'm playing in at the end of the month....its going to be a good couple of months for playing cello....

I've been weird lately, I've been sleeping on the couch. I was exactly sure until last night when i was talking to a friend...isn't it weird how sometimes things just hit you and your not sure where it came from. I decided that I was sleeping on the couch because i don't want to sleep in my bed alone....see, i told you, weird....I'm Insane : o It's not like i haven't spent most of my live sleeping by myself....o'well.....I'll just have to start working on finding someone to sleep there....
: ) I really like smiley faces. They make me happy... I think i just figured out how to link....hopefully it works...