Why yes, yes it has been a long time since i've posted!! I guess i just don't have a lot to say...also, i've been trying not to think and because of that i've lost all ability to be interesting!!! But what do you do!! I'm currently waiting for my job to start...hopefully, i will start thinking again about that time! :) It is weird to me how we can surpress thoughts...i was talking to theresa tonight and i was telling her things that obviously i have opinions on but it has never come out in thought or conversation until tonight. And these are things that i probably should have been thinking about...coming to conclusion, etc....but of course now that they have surfaced, i'm thinking about them more which at this point i'm not sure is a good thing!! Anyway...enough about that! Anyone eaten at the cheesecake factory yet!! Damn good cheesecake!! and the food is pretty damn good too...my grandparents took me out there tonight!! Good times were had....well, good food was had! : )

So what have you been doing with all your time to do nothing...well, i'm glad you asked!! I've been painting...i've moved...i've cleaned....i've cleaned more!...i've read a lot...tom robbins, i know i've blogged about him a little in my last blog but i'm going to blog about him again. I just finished Still Life with Woodpecker!! He's a really good author that can put majorly good thoughts into a book that can make absolutely no sense whatsoever! but he does it great! Anyway, i'm going to share with you a long "quote" from this book!! I think its great and totally true!!

When we're incomplete, we're always searching for somebody to complete us. When, after a few years or a few months of a relationship, we find that we're still unfulfilled, we blame our partners and take up with somebody more promising. This can go on and on-series polygamy- until we admit that while a partner can add sweet dimensions to our lives, we each of us, are responsible for our own fulfillment. Nobody else can provide it for us, and to believe otherwise is to delude ourselves dangerously and to program for eventual failure every relationship we enter.

For us singletons...i believe this provides good advice and i can see myself in some of this!! Not as much recently as it has been in the past though! Anyway, if anyone wants good reading i strongly suggest Tom Robbins. I'm on my third book so far...i haven't read this much in a long time!! : ) I've like everything that i've read by him but i do suggest Still Life with Woodpecker more than Half Asleep in Frog Pajamas!! but either one is good! : )

Maybe i'll start blogging more...that will give me something to do in my spare time and also will keep me thinking...and not thinking to much on things that will make me freak out!! which is also been happening to me!! Hopefully everyone know what that is like, at least every girl....if not, well....its probably better for you!! : )

October 27th is the Halloween party date....mark your calendars now and start preparing your costume....i'm coming to my party as Strawberry Shortcake!! Hooray for old school!

Well we are back from another trip to New Orleans!! It was a good trip but not anything close to the last two trips but i'm extremely glad that i went. I came to a couple of decisions about what the future holds....there are a few problems with school at this point!! : ( I'm hoping that i can talk to someone and get it worked out but we will have to see!! I also have a job interview on Tuesday. I'm excited about it...i don't know if i'm excited because of the job or because its a job. I know people there so hopefully something good with come from it.

Went out tonight and saw Little Miss Sunshine again. I swear that is one of the funniest movies out right now!! It is without a doubt an owner....i will need to own it!!

Has anyone read any Tom Robbins???? I started one of his books during the trip and it is great. I have about 75 pages left but i'm loving it!! I'll give you some quotes from it: The book is Half Asleep in Frog Pajamas

*The Fool is potentially everybody, but not everybody has the wisdom or the guts to play the Fool. A lot of folks don't know what's in that bag they're carrying. And they're all too willing to trade it for cash. Inside the bag, they have every tool they need to facilitate their life's journey, but they won't even open it up and glance inside. Subconsciously, the goal of all of us out of control primates is essentially the same, but let me assure you of this: the only ones who'll ever reach that goal are the ones who have the courage to make fools of themselves along the way.
*Why aren't we as smart when we wake up as we are in our dreams?
*Good-bye, melting pot, hello, chamber pot
*...you should never hesitate to trade your cow for a handful of magic beans (this is my personal favorite : )

There are more but i will spare you for now : )

I'm also listening to some good new music...i love new music : )

Whose ready for Friday??? I know i am!!

This weekend was a long one for me!! Friday night i went to a wedding of some of my college friends. One of them was in the cello section and the other i was roommates with for a while. While i love them and everyone else thats had weddings recently...i'm sick of weddings!! But what made this wedding a little worse was that i was with some of my old college friends and all they talked about was their kids and who all else i was in college with had kids!! I honestly thought i was going to hurt myself. And it all of the sudden put me in this world where i felt like i was the only one!! So then i went and hung out with another friend from college and he then tells me that his ex (who i am friends with, or thought i was) is now married too. What the hell...everyone needs to stop this insanity for my sanity : ) okay, now that i've vented about that a bit i'm feeling better.

I'm still looking for another job. I've got several leads and am hopeful that one of them will work out. I'm even going to apply for a job teaching algebra....yes....algebra!! but its okay, i like math and am good at it!! It would without a doubt be different!! And thank you so much to all of those helping me in this job hunt!! I will keep everyone posted.

But because at the moment i don't have a job that is making me any money so i'm going to go to new orleans next week. This will be my third trip and i'm starting to get excited.

In 10 years....

*I've not gotten married and have not had kids!! This is what my ten year reunion has taught me : ) I am totally not the same person i was in high school, which is awesome....but it seemed that all the so called "popular" people were the exact same (with some extra baggage : ) They are even still best friends with each other...which isn't bad just weird. Its also weird to see these same people you saw every day, some since elementary school, again....as "adults". I see them exactly as they were then....maybe thats bad but thats how it is!! I also find it weird that we'll all be pretty much connected all of our lifes. I mean we are all going our different ways but we will continue to get together to just see what people are up to. Does this happen with anything else? It doesn't happen for college!! It was just a really weird weekend for me and i can't even really explain all the weirdness i felt. I guess i'm glad i went....and i'll probably go to the next one too....maybe just because i'm noisy : ) I do know one thing...i'm glad i don't look like i did in high school : ) Thats probably bad to say but o well!!

Christina..thanks for letting me borrow your dress....i'm getting a lot of good use out of it : ) Next i'll be borrowing the yellow one : )

To all my dear friends...I do love you and I miss you and i promise once things get back to normal i will start being around again : )

Today I do feel like i've been hit by a bus though...the medicine i took is making me feel funny too!! Horray!!

A myspace note from george of the flaming lips!! what kind of freak show are we bringing???? ideas people, we need ideas!!


Hey All!

I just want to let you know we're filming the September 15th show!!!
Film crews will be in the parking lot and audience... Please feel free to bring the freak show!

George

I've filled out the fafsa form....i had originally decided not to try to get money help but then realized that that is a stupid idea!! So hopefully things work out with that....if they don't i'm not sure what i'm going to do : ) I will have to go to plan B, which is come up with another plan A!!

I've decided to get a couple of PT jobs....as of the moment i've only got one (lakeshore learning center on may) but i am currently looking for another. I've applied at several places and we will see what comes of them. I'm also going to try to teach as many students as possible. This will also give the me options of going on the other New Orleans trips that i didn't think i was going to have!! And this makes me very happy!!

I also just sent in the paperwork for my 10 year reunion!! Man, i don't feel that old that's for sure....part of me is looking forward to this just to see people, but i wasn't popular in high school and no one really knew who i was and i really didn't know who they were so it could be interesting. I've been doing some high school reunion research online and its kind of fun. Maybe I'll have some interesting stories after next weekend.... : ) okay, i doubt it!! Maybe i went to high school with my future husband...man, that is even funnier!! : )

I went and took a step class the other day....holy shit do i hurt!! it was tons of fun and i can't wait until the next one but shit, my body hasn't hurt this much in a long time...so now it is time for me to go to be so i can try to recover some of my mobility!!

Good night dear friends that i hope to see and hang out with soon!!

So, I love the internet....its great....many great things at the tip of your fingers....if you can think of them!! thats the part i don't like....you have to actually come up with what you are searching for!! Now this may not make sense but go with me....in magazines and newspapers, there are all kinds of things that you didn't even know you wanted to know...you just turn the page and its there. I'm looking for a job...i got to jobsok.com and find many things if i know the right words to search for...but if i don't i just go around in circles....but if i look in the paper, most of the same jobs are on 4-5 pages and in somewhat of an order and much easier just to skim thru....and there are recipes in magazines that i'm like, that would be awesome but when i go online to get recipes i have to know what i want....i never know what i want when i'm looking for recipes!! So i hope magazines and newspapers and even books never go out of style while i'm alive!! I like finding new things that i don't have to have the right words for.

For the first time tonight i made it to shimmers. now i've heard a lot about this snowcone place and everyone says thats its the best in town...but i had yet to try it and was wondering how any snowcone could be better than another...but its true!! Shimmers is better and i think its because they mix the syrup in with the ice instead of just putting the syrup on top of the ice!! It was really good and then the 5 gummy bears didn't hurt anything either : )

It was a sad, sad day in the world of my little black schnauzer yesterday!! He is no longer a man...or going to offically be a man!! He was a little drained last night, not to much energy after such a surgery but tonight he seems to be doing 1,000 times better : )

I'm in the process of writing a short story...and i think i'm kind of liking it!! If it turns out worth reading i will post it for all to enjoy. If it turns out not worth reading then forget i wrote anything : )

Well....camps over : ( now i have to get back to real world!! I'm applying for a couple of jobs tomorrow, fun and exciting stuff that is!! I will finish up my classes tomorrow too!! Hooray!! Then i'll really have nothing to do....i cleaned a lot of my house tonight, and man did it need it...but it makes me feel better about life when its clean and i don't have things scattered everywhere!! I can also finish my books....i've started getting my creativity back and have many ideas on projects to do (and i need to paint maria a tree....i didn't forget : ) I'm going to get my hair done on Tuesday morning....thank goodness because it is in need of some attention!! I think my manicure and pedicure may have to wait a little while....my alternator and battery in my car went out so i had to shell out money to get that fixed today!! So beauty will have to wait : ) So obviously i don't have much to say, but since i haven't written in so long i thought i'd say hi and who knows maybe i'll starting blogging more regularly???? but i will end by telling you a camp story....

Its free time, a time where kids can go to whatever activity they please. A time where counselors can spend 30 minutes away from their family groups to regain their sanity even though they are helping with the chaos that free time brings. This counselor was at fishing on Thursday, helping kids untangle fishing line when there came a fishing line diaster. There in a flash i ran to assess the situation. The little boy had somehow managed to get about 20 ft of fishing line tangled around most of his body. So the mighty counselor that i am bends done to starting fishing him out of the wire. Upon bending down there comes an odor, one that is familiar yet highly disgusting. One might had thought the kids just came from the horse pins where he stepped in a large amount of shit!! The fisherman made his way over to helping with the untangling process and finally we were done. "I think i need to wash my hands, they smell gross from that catfish" says this fisherman. Which i then in turn replied "I believe it is the little boy". The fisherman check and sure enough it is coming from the little boys pants and we have counselor number 3 take the stinky boy to the cottage!! The camp director later fills us in on the rest of the story! The smell was so bad in the office that the entire office staff left because they couldn't handle it. The camp director then somehow manages to close himself in the bathroom with the little stinky boy to help him clean up. He founds the golden softball size token that had probably been in the little boys pants for about 2 hours. Stinky boy cleans himself up with the paper towels while camp director cleans the little boys pants. No one told the little boy not to put the paper towels in the toilet...which is another story all together!!

Okay, so camp is almost over : ( This is our last week and its sad....i love camp and the kids and the staff and i feel like i'm doing something good for the world. It makes me happy and i'm not ready for it to be over....although i could use another week off : )

But now i have to get back to the real world....real work and all. Blah.....i'm am currently looking for real work. I have several oppurtunities and am starting my application process at many of them but if anyone has any great job ideas please fill me in or keep me in mind. I am a good worker and i am a fast learner....with a great personality (haha....like the commercial....get it : ) I should also know in the next week and a half if i'm accepted into my masters program....this makes me nervous and will determine a lot of what my next course in life is....its weird how that works out : )

I need to sleep....its very important to sleep!!

We played a killer soccer game tonight. We almost tied....if it hadn't been for their last goal in the last 1.5 minutes.

everyone should google, lazy sunday snl....watch this video and laugh hard...then memorize all the lyrics so we can start quoting things and rapping back and forth at each other....most go to bed....

hopefully next week in between applying for jobs i will write more blogs so i can tell you all many exciting things about my summer and the many exciting things that my life has in store for me : )

ode to tuesday

the sun comes up---

the alarm goes off yet again!!
Look at the clock---
shit i'm late!!!

Rush around--
can't be late for the 1st day of
week 5 of camp!!

back pack---check
purse---check
lunches---check
water bottle---check
ready to go!!!

BUT WAIT!!

where are my keys???

call---i'm going to be later
than late---lost keys!!!

45 minutes later~~~

look in obvious place---
on the floor!!
sister need not come!!

let the day begin--
and the head of lice camper come!!!
Thank God for Rid!!!

This is a very odd feeling for me but i believe that i'm almost caught up on school stuff!! If i will just stick with it all week and not slack off on my homework one night then life could be good... : ) Its pretty sad that the "goodness" (bad grammar i know : ) of my life revolves around if i get all of my school reading and study guides done!! Its time for me to go to bed....tomorrow, little kids!! And fiddler on the roof....i'll keep you posted.

We are back from New Orleans!! I'm half way wondering if anyone knew i was gone!! : ) It was an awesome trip!! Just as awesome as last time only different.....I have many stories and many pictures and much to say but for now i will give you this and i will post more soon!!

This could be the best video of all times and explains how the 3rd week of camp went!!



it cracks me up every time (i do understand that i could be one of the only people it cracks up!!)

http://www.thirdworldtraveler.com/Global_Secrets_Lies/Going_Cheap.html

Although this article was written 5 years ago, its is still distrubing to see that the world is like this....in my readings for my sociology class i am learning a lot about poverty and what is going on in the world and its even more disturbing....after i finish taking these test i'm going to post a did you know list....things that i find highly disturbing....i end this post with one right now!!

did you know that 1/2 of the worlds population are considered at poverty level...and most of those are children....1/2 the world is a lot of people!!

Matt 18:2-5

He called a little child and had him stand among them. And he said: I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. And whoever welcomes a little child like this in my name welcomes me.

This week at camp I had a group of 7-10 year olds!! They were awesome...so full of life and adventure!! They wanted to try everything and it didn't matter what it was...it was great and they would find a way to have fun!! And trust me we did have fun!! The one thing i love about the little kids is their ability to love, and to be loved!! They love everyone and they trust without having to know why!! How hard is it to be an adult like that....man, i can't even tell you!! It hard after life starts knocking you down to keep that trust in people and even in God...and we are very much a people that have to know why and how and how is that going to benefit me!! One thing that i found outstanding about this last week is that the last two days it rained!! Thursday it was when they were getting to camp and it wasn't raining hard but it looked like it could rain for a while.... in our morning "family time" i asked the girls to pray for something that they wanted for the day....most of them asked that the rain would stop and the sun would come out!! Well, sure enough it did and it didn't rain a drop the rest of the day!! Today, when the superhero "father nature" came out...it started raining and let up for a while then started pouring!! Our group then got together and prayed that the rain would stop and the sun would come out!! Sure enough...the rain stopped and the sun came out and the rest of the day was great!! Some of you may be thinking...well that just oklahoma and thats how it works but i have a hard time believing that!! These girls who didn't know how to "pray properly" knew that all they had to do was ask and ask for anything and not worry about what anyone thought and they knew...just knew that what they ask for would happen!! That to me is having faith of a child...that to me is one of the hardest things ever!!

Okay...so i need to go to bed and i'm about to but i thought i would let you all know that i posted a few of the pictures i have from the wedding (the kluge wedding that is) on my jenn's pic blog!! I have more and when i'm not running for the busiest person in the world i will post them!!

I have made a summer goal....i want to be able to run a mile without stopping by the end of the summer!! i went out tonight and about died!! : ) I think thats just because my body was tired and my legs didn't want to move!! but i will do it again tomorrow and they will start getting used to this whole running this : )...

Also...a goal for this week (only the weekdays) is not to eat anything sweet that isn't a 100 calories or less : )...this is going to be hard for me but i eat to many sweets!! But i did find something that goes well with raw carrots (warning: you all are going to think its gross)....brown (spicy) mustard....very good with carrots who knew, not so good with tomatoes!! (i told you everyone would think it was gross!! )

Well, i must sleep so that i can get up and study!! hooray!!

I'm just letting everyone know of the insanity that is myself!! I must sleep now for i must get up early in the morning...camp starts tomorrow and i'm very excited!! At some point (when i can find enough time) i will post pictures of Steve and Theresa's wedding...but note, that may not be until after August 1st!! : )

i just want everyone to know that the best thing ever invented by man was the pedicure!! it was truly outrageous!! : ) and also jem is truly truly truly outrageous!!

I had forgotten:

how much textbooks are

what its like to spend three hours on one chapter and still not finish (i probably never did that : )

what it feels like to be overwhelmed by being behind (already)

to have to read a hell of a lot

how your brainhurts because you cram so much info into it

but i'm loving it!! i'm taking 4 online classes this summer...which is going to keep me busier than i first expected but its okay!! once i get through what is due this weekend i will be caught up and it will be much better....i need good grades in all of these classes. i've got 3 psychology classes and 1 sociology class. its weird to me how different i find studying and wanting to learn....this is something i didn't have when i was at UCO!! : )

I'm working at shiloh summer camp this summer!! I worked there last year and i had forgotten how much i love it!! When you love something you always have a fond memory or funny stories or a special place in your heart but its not until you go back and start doing it again that you realize how great it actually is!! We had a work day today and i got to meet new people and see old friends and hang out with some of my favorite people!! it was just awesome, and in a setting where you don't have to be afraid of who you are...and i know next week there will be kids there that may not like me or may love me but whoever they are, they need me to be there for them and that is what i believe God has called us to do...be there for those who need us....help those who can't help themselves!! this is my driving factor into why i've decided to change my career path...which may possibly have to wait a little longer than i thought but we will see!! I often times want there to be more people out there who are willing to go out of their comfort zone and help those who need it and i don't understand most of the time why we don't!! but this is a whole other topic that i'm sure i will get on soon!! be prepared : )

If you are interested to see what shiloh is all about....we are having an "open house" of sorts on Saturday from 11:00-3:00...the stringents will be playing at 11:00 and it is $5 for as many people as you can fit in your car!! There will be food and horses and zip lines and all kinds of fun stuff to do!! I will post more specifics soon!!

this is me and my friend brandy at her wedding yesterday...lets just say that the whole thing was quite interesting....the fact that brandy had a wedding at all is quite interesting but this wedding i believe topped all that i've been to...and again, i have been to a lot of weddings. i drive all the way to tulsa....get there an hour early and forgot my book...drive out to the middle of nowhere and can't find anything to do except for the kum and go....so i bought "glamour" and sat outside the gas station for 45 minutes until its time to go to the wedding!! I get there and there is no one i know there!! no one at all except the bride...kind of a weird feeling!! the wedding lasted a total of 5 minutes...yes, ceremony and everything 5 minutes!! then we had to wait at the chapel for an hour until it was time to go to the reception...so i sit there and look cute, because thats what i'm good at : ) i get to the reception and here is the food...chips and salsa, relish tray, veggie tray, meatball, hot wings, and little smokies, and fruit from a can!! it was a little on the red neck side of things...not that i minded its just weird for a wedding!! just thinking about it makes me laugh...but the cake was good!! : )

I made a little money today selling my crap!! : ) So now i'm at home thinking about taking a nap!! I don't need to take a nap and should go do something productive like exercise or clean or something!! And at some point i should go buy a wedding present for a wedding i have to go to tomorrow!! But i think i'm going to put that off until the morning : ) I have my SNU interview on Tuesday to get into grad school...its a 2 hour interview! All the sudden i'm a little freaked out...i think that may be the same day that i'm supposed to start my online classes too!! If at the interview that laugh at me and point i think i may drop my classes : ) I didn't get the Bethany job and am taking it as a sign not to teach!! So i'm going to be looking for something new...not sure what yet and i haven't really looked hard but i'm going to start...i could even do that rather than take a nap...probably won't happen!! Instead, i'm going to go tanning...i have to look good in a dress next week : ) I might even do some sit ups after that...but we'll see : ) One of my summer reading projects is all 5 books from the hitchhikers guide to the galaxy...i've started reading the first one and its pretty funny!! Also saw X-men 3 last night...man, i like it a lot...i think i may like it better than the 2nd one...i haven't seen the first in so long i'm not sure about that one!! I do recommend seeing it though...

I went to bed really really early...i wasn't really feeling well!! but now its almost 1 am and i'm awake...i've been looking at vintage dresses online!! There are a lot of really cool website for vintage clothes...tomorrow i'm going to venture to the vintage clothing store in town...if you have never been there its a pretty cool store.
I'm thinking that it could be time for me to try to sleep again!! i've got to go price garage sell stuff in the morning...let me tell you...i lead an exciting life full of mystery and wonder!! : )

So i'm now offically back on 3 soccer teams!! tonight i played on a new co-ed team at hat trick...i hate hat trick...i had forgotten how much until today!! everyone is just so mean spirited!! the game was much much faster than what i'm used to...i told them going into it that i wasn't good so don't expect much....but i can only get better right!! and who knows...maybe by the end of the summer i will be in shape : ) If anyone knows of any girls who would like to be on a girls team....team serenity needs girls!!

patria is gone and it was extremely sad!! i cried...she cried...her mom cried...her friends cried : ) i feel a little bit like i've lost an arm or something...it sounds weird i know!! i'm not sure how people ever get divorced!! its hard to spend a year with someone and let them go...i can't imagine making a whole life together and letting go!!

didn't hear anything from bethany today!! i'm not getting a good feeling...i haven't really had a good feeling all along...so i'm just going to wait until friday then i'll call!! if anyone has any job ideas please let me know!!

Anyone up for some bocce??! this is my first official bocce playing experience!! and ashley and i kicked ass!! i'm thinking i need to get me one of these bocce sets : )

I think for tonight i'm done with boring everyone with pictures!! but i'll post more later!! : )

Most of you have seen this but in case you haven't...this is the new addition to my foot!! I don't know that its going to be a good idea for there to be legal tattoos in oklahoma : ) i cant think of at least two more that i want to get...joey, got lucky...he got a kick ass tattoo for really cheap ($10)...but i really like mine too!!

I guess because i have more time on my hands i will be blogging more...already i have posted 3 or 4 times today...i can't keep up...hopefully i will be able to get into some of the more meaningful blogs that i've written done on paper...

I spent my last evening with patria and her mom tonight...sad : ( Tomorrow i will see her off at the airport!! I'm sure i will cry!!

some of you may be wondering what i've been doing with all my "free time"...with no kid to worry about and now that my job is offically over!! well...take a look!! i've been painting...a lot!! I even have more things that aren't pictured here!! its possible that everyone i know could be getting a jenn original!! watch out world : )

These are pictures from this weekend...friday night at bahama breeze for christina's birthday and saturday night for theresa's bacholorette party!! i promise i only put the good ones up!! : ) I'm also posting some pictures from friday night on my picture blog..