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I'm in the process of composing an e-mail that i'm going to send to my friends that is going to contain what my wishes would be if ever something really serious happened to me. Its not exactly a legal document but several people will have it and will be able to confirm what my wishes are. Eventual I will do a real one but for now i think this would cover my bases. Especially because my family never talks about stuff like this so they wouldn't know and they would just have me hanging on forever. It seems so weird to think about this stuff at such a young age, but you just never know. And I work at a school...and with all the weird things that are happening at schools, i guess its not a bad idea to let someone know what you want...okay, enough depressing talk.... : )

Is blogger being weird for anyone else?

night visitor

so i have a friend and you just never know if he is coming or going or if you will ever even see him again. well, after being asleep for about 3 hours last night, my phone keeps ringing. I didn't ever realize it was ringing until about the 5 time. I answer the phone...
Me...Hello

Him...Hey Jenn, what are you doing? (stupid question : )

Me...Sleeping...

Him...I figured, thats why i called 6 times...can i sleep on your couch.

So he comes over and sleeps on the couch. My dog doesn't like men, especially when she first meets them. So she barks for a while at him and then has nightmares....she was whining in her sleep all night. I wish i could go in her little mind and see what happened to her....but something tells me i don't really want to know. Part of me is thinking i may never get rid of my night visitor now...i love him but he can be to much sometimes....

November 18th 2005

Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire comes to the theatre : )



This is my favorite book...so far...the 6th book comes out July 16th....Harry potter and the half blood prince : ) This is also very exciting : )

I made it...

through my first hour...it was really hard to go to school today...but once i got there i realized i have great kids and its all worth it : ) Its my next hour that i'm worried about. They hate "Mr. Smith" and he hates them and is always saying negative things....i'm going to be fighting a war for leaving them...but it was worth it.



These are my family members : )

My aunt bonnie (bottom right corner) and i were on the same egg toss team. She is a bit of a girlie girl so she went and got trash bags for us to put on. Well, the right game started and we made our first throw and the next thing we know all the other teams (about 9) are throwing their eggs at us...we were sabotaged : ) but it was really funny....

I have made it back home from my trip....i have several new pictures that will make upcoming post : ) Now i have to get back to real life....yuck...i'm really not looking forward to it, but i just have to keep in mind that I only have 7.5 weeks until summer break...yea!!! I really hope the buffy's we are watching tonight are good...i may fall asleep : )

trip : )

This is what I wrote on the plane....

So, I don't know if I was convinced that airports were actually more secure...but i would be wrong. It took me about 2 seconds to check in byt about 10 minutes to get through security. My ID was checked at least twice and I was even made to take off my shoes : ) When they checked the bags on the convier belt, they actually stopped at everything. That, i had never seen.

I have about an hour to sit in the airport...it is a great place to people watch though : ) If i had a instrument i could work on shiny's new song...but unfortunatly i don't. Maybe I should work on some lyrics. I'm not sure if this one will have lyrics or not, but right now i'm thinking it probably will : ) Maybe we will be able to play this on the 8th of april...and just tell everyone its a work in progress...we'll see : )

Good Idea....Crystal Light on the Go!

Lyrics...No one ever plans to sleep out in the gutter, sometimes it just the most comfortable place...bright eyes...

Its weird to think about how often we put our very lives in the hands of other people, often times strangers. Take flying, i have never met this pilot and yet, he has control over my life. If he does anything wrong or makes a mistake..i could be goner, along with everyone else on this plane. And there is even riding with friends in a car....the minute to get in the car your life is in their hands...and in the hands of the other people on the road....hum...well, i'm glad that, that kind of stuff doesn't scare most people : )

Bad Idea....putting milk chocolate dove egg in coffee (it doesn't really melt)

Its amazing to me how unfriendly people are. You can make eye contact and smile at someone and they act like you have just committed a sin...wow, I didn't realize being friendly was a crime...oh wait...i remember the 11th commandment....thou shall not be friendly to anyone...okay...my mistake : )

easter : )

Well, I'm in San Antonio for Easter and i took off monday and tuesday from work so that will be really fun. I got to spend time with my cousins and aunts today. My aunts are the coolest people in the world. We won the potato sack races and we totally lost the egg toss. The kids had a great easter egg hunt and moon walks. Now everyone is sitting outside talking and just having a good time. I found out my cousin nick goes to NYU and is in a band and thats pretty cool. Hopefully i can e-mail him and get back in contact. We are really the only ones in my family that have the same interest. I did tell my aunt that I had to get famous before he did. He has band name Elysia Fall. I will link it when i get home and find the website. My grandparents computer sucks. I actually have a lot to write. I wrote a whole blog on the plane that i will try to post tomorrow or when i get back. This side of the family is more the side i have in common with. They are way laid back and don't take things quite as serious. We have fun. At Christmas a couple of years ago we played twister with my 40 year old aunts. Man they are just cool. Okay. Well, I hope everyone had a great easter and no one did anything evil. : )

Happy Easter

How many easter eggs can you find? : )

I hope everyone has a wonderful easter : )

the easter bunny was even there : )

two nights of grandpa griffith....what more could you ask for in life : )

Grandpa Griffith Rocks : )

the world

have you ever felt like you have pissed off every single person in the world and your not exactly sure how or why....and you have no clue how to fix it? well, welcome to my new world : ) I don't like conflict but it seems to be at my door....AARRGGHH!!!!

high school

Sometimes high school students crack me up...today i over heard this conversation.

"Yeah, he is so ugly. He talks to Deon, thats how ugly he is..."

that ugly huh? : )

anticipated news : )

I know everyone has been waiting with breathless anticipation for the announcement of the nameless bands name....i really hope no one was holding their breath because you might be dead : ) but we have made a decision....after many sleepless nights, long discussions...a few arguments we have named the nameless band.....

Shiny

we are very shiny : )


Thanks to amanda and joey for the background of this picture : )

fortune cookie for today : )

"Lotus are Red, Lillies are Blue, Love in Bushels will soon come to you"

Well, its about damn time ; )

Must go back to work....must go back to work...must go back to work....

man, i'm having fun : )

If some of the girls on the girls soccer team had a portrait done this would resemble it : )

Is anyone catching on that i have to much free time on my hands right now....but i'm having tons of fun ; )

Fortune cookie for the day : )

"You may have to be patient now....think, listen and heed signs"

I think my first music purchase is going to need to be a 8 track....I have three song parts written, but i have no idea if they fit together...its somewhat frustrating : ) I'm calling my new composition "the nameless song for the nameless band : )" I know, I'm just funny....

oh....

Will we ever know what is to be? Will there ever be a "oh, okay, this is it, this is what i'm supposed to do, this is who i'm supposed to be with?" Does life ever make sense? or do we just live life hoping and praying that we don't get fucked over to bad and thats the best there is? This is very pessimistic I know. And in all fairness my life is pretty damn good, it just seems that the things that i really want in life, i never get....and that just sucks. I really want to believe that good things come to those who wait, but how long do you have to wait.....Okay, i'm done with this : )

I get to play around with a fake moog tonight...this is exciting...i also got a computer program where i can program some drum beats. This will also be fun...i think it could take me a while to figure out how to get it to works though : ) I was thinking last night of all the fun music stuff i need. I need a small mixing board..i need an eight track...i need a bass pod...i need at least one amp, but probably two...i need an i-pod (hint, hint) : )...eventually i'm going to need a laptop and a better drum program (although, i haven't used this one yet, i've been told i will need a better one)...i need a new keyboard...so i probably won't get all of this but it is okay to dream... : )

songs

First of all Cake and Gomez are both going to be in Tulsa Thursday April 7. This is crazy....crazy i tell you : )

Has anyone ever had a song written about them?
Well, in my short life i've had two people write songs about me...so i'm going to post these lyrics.

Needles in the Dark

Hey, Hey are you awake Everybody's leaving Do you want to stay never lost a friend but taken for granted all the things that i'm bad at I should lose one now and then Won't listen to me Even in the end Here I got again needles in the dark Swimming with the sharks I won't regret a thing I love your strings Holding me up Hey, hey are you awake

Winter's March

It's time to show my heart to love again Through winter's breath we march full stride again I've torn these words apart time and again Did you know the pipes were frozen And the drain has been leaking for years But the wind blows across the plains now And the grain has been planted once again It's time to show my heart to love again Through winter's breath we march full stride again I've torn these words apart time and again

This one actually makes me the saddest...

one of those days

Do you ever just have one of those days where nothing is really bad, but nothing is good either and it seems like a lot of little things keep popping up to make your life hard : ) Well, that was my lovely day today....and it all started with the dog : ) But now i'm at home and all i want to do is sleep.

Only 9 weeks left of the school year : )
I'm going to try to remember that I get to see great music in the next couple of months that will make it all better. Wilco will be here on April 25th : )

Why hello

I'm feel like i'm running out of blogging material. And all I do is talk about nonsense so I guess there is just really nothing going on. I do go back to school tomorrow for another 9 weeks. This is going to be a hard 9 weeks but I think its going to go by pretty fast. We are taking a trip and have contest and concerts, so i'll be busy.

Yesterday was Catholic workers day....we bag and deliver groceries to the poor. I'm realizing more and more how messed up our government is . Yesterday, I visited a family who lived in a hotel room. There was a mother and two kids. One bed, no sheets. We walked in and everyone just looked scared. Why are we fighting a war when we can't even feed our own people? When people who need help can't get help? Why are we not putting "war" money into ourselves? Its sad to me to think that these two kids will likely end up the same way their mother is. I once had this idea...probably my junior year in college...if i ever made a lot of money I would build/buy and apartment complex for such people. A place where these people can go and have help figure out their lives. A place where God is. A place that there would be no drugs. A place that is clean and well kept, but not costly. A place that is a community, where people in the same situations can make friends and have social groups. What i'm finding, a lot of are these people are alone and don't know what to do or how to help themselves. I personally have a great group of friends. People who are supportive and loving and would help me out with anything. These people don't have that, and i think you can't live life without that kind of support. This place would have counselors and doctors and teachers who would come in and just help these people in anyway they could. Sometimes our world makes me sick to my stomach...okay, i'm done for now : )




The nameless band is really close to having a name : ) I'll keep you posted....I am even working on an original song for us...it could be cool, but probably not...this is my first attempt at writing for a band, we'll see.

remote control

I'm may just kill me a dog....i guess sydney was mad at me today and decided it would be really fun to eat all the remote controls....also, to chew the hair dry chord into two....i did say i wanted a dog right : )

The concert last night went awesome....everyone seemed to really enjoy themselves too...i had several people ask if we had a cd and when we were playing again....thats pretty cool...I was going to post some pictures and i may do that later, but i just didn't like the way i looked in them....vain i know : )

I feel like i've been on a diet forever and i look at last nights pictures and just wonder what the hell... i'm i really doing all of this for nothing....owell...i'll get over it : ) Maybe playing soccer tonight will help....I think i'm going to die though, because it has been so long since i have played or worked out for that matter....next week though, the work out is back in full gear...these pictures just proved that : )

concerts : )

Album Leaf was awesome, Ester Drang was awesome, Roots of Orchis was awesome. All around it was just awesome. We got home about 4:45 this morning... : ) That was awesome too : )



And tonight I get to play my own show...and my biggest dilemma is what to wear....I guess when thats the only thing you have to worry about, thats not to bad : )

Day 4

Man, its hard to believe that spring break is almost over. I went from not having any spring break plans to a very busy week, at least for nothing to do. But today, i'm going to accomplish some of the things i'd plan to do. I'm going to go to the red cup and get tea and read...this is very important in my life at this point. Then I'm going to do things like get my oil changed and teach lessons and then the best part of the day....i'm going to denton, tx. I'm going to see Album Leaf, Ester Drang, and the Roots of Orchis. I love going to concerts and have been dying to see a good live show.....its going to rock : ) And it was supposed to snow today and i looked this morning to see what the temperature was going to be and its going to be around 62...man, this is going to be a great day. : ) And i don't have to fry any chicken. And you couldn't ask for a better st patty's day.....a happy one to everyone....may all your green beer be good : )

grease

I smell and feel like a grease pit. A grease pit has to be one of the grossest things in the world. A bunch of grease that has fried anything you can possible think of all in one great big metal container....blah... : ) I'm just really glad to be home : ) I have been frying chicken all day, for my dad...and now its time to get in the shower....i think i'm going to need at 2 hour steaming shower to get the smell to go away....i'm sure everyone cares too : )

songs : )

I have just come up with the most brillant of brillant ideas :) I was messing around on a keyboard, trying to find a sound that would work for Yoshimi and it hit me. The nameless band's first original song should have one of these great recorded rhythm tracks. We jam out with a bosa nova beat...or riff rock beat...or just a nice groove...the possiblities are endless : ) Man, its a good thing this band has me around for idea as great as this one : )

Day 2 of spring break

Okay, I really have nothing today and although i have already posted a lot of pictures I think i'm going to do another picture post : )









btw...i love ice cream : )

Okay, i'm done for now....man i love playing with new things....

Okay, now i'm having major fun with pictures : )

The first band picture : )

I tried writing a song for us today and it just wasn't happening. Thats okay, i'll try a new method tomorrow....or sometime else : ) I probably shouldn't try writing a song on guitar anyway : )

stop and smell the roses

Well, in my world we do no such thing....we stop and smell everything else. We stop to smell grass, and pine cones and other dog poop....but no roses....we'd probably eat the roses : ) Okay, i personally don't do any of this but Sydney does. We like to go on walks but really its more of a start/stop/start/stop thing. We only walk in between starting and stopping : )

I think i'm going to try writing a song today....but i think that is going to have to come after my nap. For some reason i'm extremely tired...blah....I love spring break :)

The holy day

Well, today i had two extremely productive band rehearsals.....The caverns ran through all of our songs twice and even got a live recording going, that didn't sound half bad when i was leaving. We are playing on Friday night at the conservatory. If we play as well as we did today then its going to rock hard : ) I was a little worried about the drummer thing but i think it is working out. The drummer that is playing with us Friday played with the Lancaster sound which was another band i was in. He puts more of a rock beat to everything, so this show won't be quite as laid back as the last few times we have played.

Band number two (the nameless band) had a rehearsal today too. We are getting way better. We got through two of our songs fairly easily and now we can add stuff to improve them which is going to be really cool. i'm excite about adding a key line to Yoshimi, by the flaming lips. Hopefully i can do that some this week. We also made very good headway on Mrs. Robinson. Its harder than it seems...as i've said in the past : ) I felt really good though. I think that could be our best song at our upcoming "show : )"



I'm very sad about the weather. I'm on spring break and there is a chance of snow...how sucky is that. I'm ready to play outside. Yesterday was really nice, it made we want to go camping : ) I haven't been camping in a long time.

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Aphrodite/Eros


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oh happy days

it is offical....i'm on spring break and i'm very excited : ) I don't have to teach for an entire week...yea!!!!

penguin : )

My mom e-mailed me this today and it thought it was fun so i'm sharing it with you : )

Smack the penguin

I think the highest i got was about 300. I miss the penguin more than i don't : )



I used to watch this with my grandparents....i think i heard it was either coming out on DVD or was already out...hum...

natural light

I have been told by several people that i can't tell stories and it is very true....i just come to an abrupt end and then i'll have to say things like....well, thats all i have or okay, i done....something to that effect...but anyway...talking about natural light and windows in my last post makes me think of a story that i will try to tell and that i think is funny, but no one else may. First thing to note, i am nothing like my family, my family is more conservative...they don't drink or cuss or other things like that : )
My story...

I was babysitting my cousins a few months ago, while my aunt and uncle were out of town. I would always have the door open and the window shades pulled up to let light in. One time I was opening up the windows and my cousin...who might be in 3rd grade...said "you must like natural light"..well the first thing that popped into my head was....how did she know i drink...and then i though, how does she know about the worst beer around...then it hit me what she was talking about : )

I told you....but i'm going to post it anyway : )

a good day

Well, today was a good day....even though i had to teach all of the classes. Its pretty outside. Not exactly warm but just nice. So i opened my doors and opened the blinds on my windows to let the light in. Then Sydney and i played for a while and we went for a walk to see Yoder and Ashley. Then we came home and I cleaned and rearranged. I've got to do that every few months : ) My friends like to make fun of me because I never change anything....hahaha...i'm a changer....not for tvs : ) Oh, yeah, i almost forgot, I got some new cds today and i've been listening to them. I listened to the best of UB40...i really like reggae. Right now i'm listening to the best of bjork. I also got a bob marley, nick drake, my morning jacket and the garden state soundtrack. Thats only 6...hum what else did i get. oh yes...air, they did the music to the virgin suicides, i like that cd so i thought i would purchase another. Here in a while, i'm going to go to church for choir practice...that should be fun...i've always wanted to sing in a choir. Overall a very good day... : )

The flaming lips have put out what i call a cover cd. You can read the article and hear part of it on from pitchfork (surprise, surprise : ) I'm liking what i hear so far....the song i hear right now doesn't sound like wayne though, more like Beck...hum maybe that will have to be a spring break purchase : ) Okay, what i decided was just the first song was the flaming lips, not the whole thing : ) Sometimes i can be stupid : )



Well, things are getting pretty serious right now. I mean, he gave me his real e-mail address. I guess you could say things are gettin' pretty serious! : )

sufjan stevens

Good news for all you sufjan fans....it looks like his new album about Illinois will be arrive July 5. Nice and patriotic if you ask me :) It also looks like you may see another state album by the end of the year, and possibly a EP for a "small state". This kind of confuses me though...would Oklahoma be considered a small state or new york? New York is way smaller in size but way bigger in popularity....hum...I guess we will find out won't we. It looks like maybe sufjan will create music for all 50 states after all : ) And he will be going on tour soon....this is way exciting too....

sydney

This is my new addition....i just had her today : ) Her name was Cindy...but i had a roommate named Cindy so i call her sydney, because it sounds a lot like Cindy. Right now i think she is looking for a good place to hide her rawhide bone with peanut butter : ) Hopefully she is not trying to use the restroom on my floor : ) She is 1 yr and 1 month old. She is supposed to be house broken and so far, so good, but i'm not really holding my breath. She is half sharpey and half german sheperd, but she is really sweet and she comes when i call, and she doesn't bark. I got her a little soccer ball and a bone that say rock n roll on it. She is going to be the coolest dog in the world. : ) Shes just great. : ) I'm sure you will see and read more about her in future blogs.

Happy Sunday

This is a great picture of me from last night....drawn by a very talented friend of mine...i think she is going to go far on her ablilities as an artist : )

I had two band practices today....very weird. I enjoyed them both, one more than the other, but i won't let you know which one : ) One has a show coming up really soon and we are almost getting ready to practice with the whole band...so that should be good. I actually have no clue where my music is for that group. In the nameless band we worked on Mrs Robinson most of the time, it was good. Although this song is harder than the shins i think it is going to sound better. it seems to be coming together better. Even when you are in two or three different keys. We caught on pretty fast that we were wrong so no worries : )

I'm going to go look at puppies tomorrow....I'll let you know how that turns out : )

Do you ever get really weird feelings, where you feel like change is about to happen, and your just not sure what is going to happen but you can't get rid of the feelings? This is how i've felt all weekend. I feel like something is going to happen, but i don't know when and i don't know what but its kind of messing with me. I feel like this change is going to be for the good though, whatever it may be...this may sound to strange for some people but this has happened to me several times in my life...And i am positive that this feeling has nothing to do with getting a puppy : )

i don't know

I heart....

I love my friends....They are so good to me that they would come to my show, that i didn't play very much and just sit and watch....I thank each and every one of them and I love you all....I also love all the of my friends that didn't come...i understand...but don't let it happen again : ) just kidding...one of my friends told me tonight that i play like an angel...i'm sure i will remember that forever...hopefully he wasn't kidding : )

I have this lady that come up to me at these shows that has a friend with my name and she always wants me to sign...to Jennifer Mills from Jennifer Mills and thats just weird...next time i think i won't : ) Okay, so i probably will...she just doesn't know that the second Jennifer Mills is going to be extremely famous one of these day...I've always said i was meant for the stage : )

I gave a family dog away today and now i think it is time for me to get a puppy...everyone is doing it : )...thats not really the reason i want one, i almost think that if i could have kept maggie i would have, we bonded in the car on the way to my friends house....I don't know, two cats and a dog...i'm just not sure i can pull that off... but knowing me, if i get something in my mind....look out. : )

a long day

It has been an extremely long day....i'm very glad it is over. I took my high school students to district solo and ensemble contest. Its just weird being responsible for so many people. Thats like a very adult thing to do and most of the time i don't really feel like an adult. We did well though. We received 5-I and 6-II, which is good. The judges were giving out a lot of III today and i'm glad we didn't get any : ) Everything went extremely smoothly and i had my friend Ashley there in case i passed out or anything : ) Now we go to state in about a month....road trip to Stillwater...the fun just keeps coming ; )

I did get a little nostalgic today. I had my students play for the class before we left for SNU. One of my violinist played a song that i heard probably every day one year. One of my best friends in high school, played the same piece. There were 4 of us and we all kind of tortured each other with our solos. We could pretty much sing all of each others solos at any given time. No, I wasn't a nerd in high school : ) It also made me think how sad it was that i never talk to Bryan anymore : ( Oh, well, i wouldn't go back to high school to save my life.

cool videos

Joey sent me these links to some cool videos: This is We Will Become Silhouettes, by postal service...its directed by Jared Hess who wrote/directed Napoleon Dynamite

This one is Death Cab for Cutie

spring

This is the first sign of spring in my yard...so its time to recite my favorite spring time poem that my grandpa taught me...

spring has sprung
the grass has riss
there them pretty flowers is

KC Clifford

I'm playing this show Saturday....poor girl though, this show was set up for a record label and now it looks like they might not be coming...I really enjoy playing cello for her, her style of music isn't my favorite but it is a lot of fun : )